rather saddening

well, today was the second band competition. albi stadium this time. meh. wasn't too bad. our percussion got fourth, just behind mead, pasco, and cv. which bascially means we're awesome.
our drum break part in the finale just isn't coming together, and it's kind of making me angry.
my parentals made jambalaya for marching band lunch today. it was basically delicious.


so i think i don't have many friends. like, i have friends, but not super close friends. even the person who i thought i was close to, ms. katherine victoria, seems to have replaced me mightily. it's pretty cool that we're "best friends," seeing as how i'm not even mentioned on her myspace. not even in her top four. i mean, i understand having kevin and her mother in there, but then she has kevin's mom and tyler. and that makes me very sad. and angry. and jealous. but mostly sad. that i really don't seem to matter anymore. to anyone at all, honestly. i hope everyone understands that i wasn't just ranting about kati there.
i miss her, i really do.

looks like there won't be bingo when we're eighty.

i think i'm basically the invisible girl here, to be perfectly honest. i'm not really there, just in the background, an intrusion on the memories of others around me. which is upsetting to me.

well, i am completely exhausted, looks like bedtime.

"nothing left but this empty feeling. rejection from the very same thing that gave me definition."

-stick to your guns, we're what separates the heart from the heartless