frightened.

well, it's been a while.


i really haven't had anything remotely exciting to blog about, so, therefore, i haven't blogged. sorry to anyone who actually reads this.

so, as of thursday, i'm a vegetarian. i've tried it once or twice before, but my family didn't really pay attention to it, so i had to eat our meat dinners or starve, since we have meat dinners basically every night. but this time, my mom is actually supporting me in my efforts.

so we'll see.

i've spent the entire three-day weekend loafing around my house, reading eleven books and baking a cake. yesterday, though, i actually left my house. i went to church, then the drugstore, then the library, then i went and worked out. i did elliptical for thirty minutes, and i went two miles apparently, so a really easy pace, but i did burn two hundred and sixty calories, which is basically everything i ate before i went. a bowl of cereal and a deauxnette.

i'm going to get a job in may hopefully, right after the a.p. tests and the sat or act or whatever i take. i want to go to spain over spring break next year, and my dad basically said if i can pay, i can go.

i tried to register for the sat, but it said that i had already registered, so i had to put in my registration number and whatever, but i haven't taken the sat since seventh grade, and they said it only lasts a year. so, they may have mixed me up with molly, but since it's electronic, that doesn't make much sense. so i'm not sure what's up. i might just take the act and not evn take the sat. that's what molly suggested, she was saying the sat is basically a waste of time anyway, and she did much better on the act. so we'll see. if the colleges i want to apply to put just in much stock in the act as they do in the sat, i'll probably just do that.

thinking about college scares me. in a year and a half, i'll have graduated from high school and i will hopefully be on a senior road trip. then i'll be in college, and everything will be different because all my friends will be god-knows-where, and we'll be almost adults, out there in the "real world" where nothing is the same as it was in my sheltered little not-real world. it's frightening to me.

"the sun was out, the air was warm, but oh, i felt cold."

-ted & the pharmacists, me and mia